Old Man Junky

Battle Against Baby Loss

About my fundraising


Thanks for taking the time to visit my Tommy's all-stars page.

1 in 4 pregnancies will result in a miscarriage. Investigations will only take place after 3 concurrent miscarriages and in most cases will not reveal a definitive cause. Funding for this type of research has never been high priority and miscarriage itself is largely treated like a taboo or insensitive subject that is not openly talked about.  

However the effects of miscarriage are very traumatic. From experience of having 2 concurrent miscarriages I can tell you, it shatters your soul. Tommy's charity specialises in baby loss and prevention with dedicated staff tailored to offer support in all situations regarding miscarriage or baby loss. Personally I have lent upon members of the Facebook group peer to peer support group, have been offered support and offered my own. I have listened to many story's and shared the grief of other hopeful parents.

Please visit my YouTube channel for a short video piece about my story and why I'm so passionate about raising awareness for Tommy's charity.


Trigger warning below is our story please do not read if you feel it may cause you additional trauma.

*This is not a happy story, it's harsh and it's life but there is still love, so much love. My wife is a beautiful inspirational heroic woman*

May 7th 2018 Tuesday afternoon after trying for many years we were finally expecting. My first reaction "let's go the asda and get some dog food" 

Yeah not what you expected? The overwhelming disbelief I needed the extreme normality and mundanity of a trip to the asda to let it sink in. We bought about 20 tests to make sure it was all true. We phoned a midwife even though it was only 3 weeks at most. We got told to sit tight and wait for an appointment at the 6 week point 😅. We didn't know what to do so we nervously carried on and fretted excited and scared. 

We had an early scan at 7 weeks that did not reveal much the lady believed we had mismatched our dates about 2 weeks and thats why they could not find a heart beat but everything looked ok. 

Weeks passed we were due our first scan, we started to get some spotting. Terrified we tentively went to a and e it was a Saturday after some hours of bloods we were told so close to scan it was not worth doing an early scan and everything would probably be fine. Still nervous and unable to settle we again booked last minute for a reassurance scan at a private scan centre. Il never forget the moment we were told our baby had no heart beat till my dying day. The moment we both lost a piece of our own heart, how kind the nurse was and how numb it all felt. The agony of having to walk out through a room of expecting parents trying to hold the shattered pieces of ourselves together till we reached the car. 

I phoned around people to let them know I. Held my pain locked it away and got things done, I did what I thought was my duty I sorted things I did the mundane household chores, I took the dog for a walk I protected my wife held her and wiped her tears as I held my own. Stubborn afraid to face the reality whilst pretending I was at peace with the reality. A man made of broken glass held together by will, afraid to show weakness and vulnerability and now I know that's probably what my wife needed most.  

We had an official scan at the hospital, we heard our baby had no heart beat. The words held less force this time, the world moves on we had to move on. We were given options, we opted for medical management. We were not prepared, they say it's like a heavy period, fortunately I have never had to experience either but I have seen my wife cope with periods and this was not that and if I could have swapped places and took that pain I would have in a heartbeat, for the sheer want of taking away her suffering and pain and because selfishly it would remove the feeling of being so useless as I sat with her rubbing her back and wiping away her sweat. 

E3 a gaming conference it was on during this time, my wife made me watch each night and chat to my friends and get excited it seems hollow but she wanted normality. (I told you she was a hero) she bought me a really expensive game for my birthday I broke down because I knew it all meant nothing and I'd give up all my possesions to have that moment back when we would be parents but I let her buy me it because she wanted to do something to make me feel better to make her feel better. 

Time passed, she would and still feels waves of grief and I do my best to offer comfort. I eventually broke down about 7 months later, everything crumbled and the grief caught up with me, she was my rock. I cried and howled and blubbered and I'm not ashamed and she held me, I'd had a dream, I held my son and then I woke up and I was a man who had suffered a miscarriage in the eyes of the world I was not a parent.

Later that year, we had another miracle, just over a year after our first tragedy we were pregnant again. There was more worry this time, we bought supplements we changed habits, I stopped my wife doing anything that might jeopardise this pregnancy. After a few weeks it all got too much, we had an early scan to reassure and after a long minute in that room we had a strong heart beat and the world started moving again. I wept. This was it. Just before the 12 week scan, spotting we had a reassurance scan I sat in that chair I held my wife's hand and I wept because there was no heart beat. 

That was just over a year ago, coming up to the date I lost control, I started feeling like I was back in that room I was trapped in that moment and I was being told my baby had no heartbeat again and again. I told my wife, and she held me and she said that's how I feel all the time and we just held each other.

This is not a happy story, but there is love. I don't know what the future holds, but I know our story is a sadly a common story, it's not one that told more muttered in hushed circles, its strange how people don't talk about miscarriage given how common it is. 

This is our story, it's not a happy story. But there is so much love. My wife is my hero x 

Last year we raised £1350! Thank you so much! This year I aim to try an beat that achievement with your help. As the goal is bigger so must be the challenge therefore this year it's going to be a bit different.

Day 1 friday the 23 of july I will walk and complete the Wirral way, this route is approximately 13.5 miles

Day 2 Saturday 24th of july 10am I will conduct again like last year a 24 hour gaming marathon live on twitch. Giveaways included (prizes tbc)

Day 3 Sunday 18:00pm (after a sleep) I will hold a small candle lit vigil down Moreton shore to remember the 1 in 4.

This will conclude this year's fundraiser 

You can watch along on http://twitch.tv/old_man_junky

Thank you for your support.


Tommy’s is an organisation of caring and committed people who refuse to accept that 1 in 4 pregnancies have to end in loss or premature birth.

Right now, 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, stillbirth or premature birth.

Across the UK our dedicated researchers, doctors, nurses and midwives are finding causes and treatments to save babies’ lives. We also provide free trusted information and support for everyone before, during and after pregnancy.

Battle Against Baby Loss is Tommy’s first virtual fundraising event taking place between 19- 25 June 2021 to raise vital funds to help save babies’ lives. Together, we will work to break the silence around loss, support each other and prevent future heartbreak.

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My updates

We did it!

Sunday 25th Jul
Take a bow, pat your back! We bloody did it! Thank you everyone 🥰

14 miles 4 hours (5 with breaks)

Friday 23rd Jul
Phase one complete. I'm shattered and overwhelmed as always with the generosity kindness and support of everyone. Thank you so much for supporting and sharing this journey with us! 24 hour stream tomorrow hope to see some faces and chat and best of luck with the giveaways. ❤️

1 week to go!

Saturday 17th Jul
The actual battle against baby loss weeks starts this Monday 19th. For me it starts next Friday for the walk.

Continuing to push the campaign on socials! Excited for it all to come to fruition. 

With offline donations and dono's on another platform we sit at £686 so just under half way to the main goal. Will we hit it? Hope so! Thank you everyone who has helped so far x

Small update

Thursday 8th Jul
So someone called DC? Donated £20 to the just giving page, so I'm just gonna tally that seperatly for now. 

And we've had £25 in offline donations 

Which means where at £450 technically!

Just under a third of the total. 

Devolver digital have sent out a merch box and they have surpassed my wildest dreams In terms of generosity ❣️

Big donation! (Context)

Thursday 1st Jul
So I already started on just giving! That's now been added to this page to reflect the actual amount raised so far.

The people who contributed to the £299.27p

Tony - little optimist 
Karl Murton 
Karls dad
Dave wizz 
Natalie dill 

Thank you so much guys ❤️

The journey

Monday 28th Jun
Something so hard as miscarriage has had such an affect on my life.  Sometimes I've felt suffocated, I've often found myself trapped in the moment it all happened and I've had to hold back the tears and smile when I've had to congratulate others on their miracles.

One thing that's been consistent however and has helped me through is Tommy's, from the support page on socials and the ability to take part and feel like I'm making a difference fundraising myself and now via Tommy's all stars. 

I'm so proud of all the staff and all the work they put in. I can't wait to take part in the babl event and hopefully raise my £1500 target. 

Together we can make a difference and save babies lives ❤️

Thank you to my Sponsors


Daniel Marsden



So sorry to hear your story. Really great to see you taking your pain and turning it into something positive.


Dan Hunter

Good luck on the arl fundraiser m9


Jake Burrows

Best of luck with the cause Dan!



Warm weather for running buddy



Love you brother!


Pat & Cliff

Well done. Take care. Nan & Grandad


Dean Pate

Good Luck on the strim! Hope you've got enough red bull.


Shelia, Patrick, Alex, Mandy, Jamie


Lost King Gaming



Stephen Burrow

Good luck 👍




Brandon Patino


Gareth Morgans

Sorry I couldn't get on to support you mate. Hope it went well 👍



Well done mate


Norma Smith

Keep going dan your doing a great job hope you reach your target lots of love Norma and brian


Daniel Marsden

Note to myself! Keep going ❤️


Paul Moss

Good luck Dan!


Stacie Kenny

Good luck and keep going x


Dimitrios Peristerakis




Stewart Vint

Good luck and all the best.


Ian Skitt

All the best with the fundraising mate, keep it going.


Frances Jones

Well done Danny very proud of you ❤️❤️


Michelle And James Lawler

Always here for you both xxxxx


Kieron Conroy


Kyle Dentith


Daniel Sean Clouston

Good luck with the goal man :) much love


Mr And Mrs Ewok

Keep up the good work, what a amazing thing to do for a amazing cause.


Tony S


Pat & Cliff Marsden

Well done Dan. Proud of you.


Morgans Family

Well done for doing this again this year. Hope it went well. Best wishes Morgans Family


Neil Mulvaney


Tom Perkins


Andy Roberts

Great work Danny, keep it up pal.


Daniel Marsden



Well done man 🙌


Aaron Saunders


Dave Cunningham


Darren Nagle

Good luck Dan mate.



Good luck dude. May the force be with you, and all hail the Jollyboat ;-)


Nicola Kelly

Good luck Dan & Sean, hope this little gift helps xx


Donna Hambleton



Well done mate, you've done a fantastic job raising so much!


Sean Mcfadzean


Michael Daly




Amazing thing you are doing , much love to you both🤩





Sean Mcfadzean


Sean Mcfadzean


Sean Mcfadzean


Claire Friars

Well done Daniel! X


Sean Mcfadzean


Ben Hopkins


Day Phennah(arsoni$t)

So inspirational Danny 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻


Digital Gaming Hub

Thank you for doing this!